Noona baru habis tengok episod 9 di BangtanTV dan ini adalah catatan Noona. Seperti biasa kita menggunakan dwibahasa sebab begitulah bagaimana otak saya berfungsi.
Kita mulakan dengan Suga yang kata lets not talk about the past, talk about the current and future and seconds later he start talking about hyyh, the past, 13 years together. And its always funny because Suga will avoid eye contact for the whole episode especially with the members.
I realized that RM style of communicating is to reply back what you said but in a really fun and easier way. He must had master this skill himself as it is not easy to translate what you yourself and others said about deep emotional stuff in an easier simple term, As we know that RM himself is a deep thinker or should I said overthinker?
I love RM interviewing Suga because its only when you are very good friend that you can ask personal question to further understand ones story. Also, when we talk to our friends, sometimes we talk and realized things that we don't even know before. Anyone having the chance to talk personally with RM must feel a sense of relief like Jimin said.
To be able to ask your friend directly and sincerely, how had you been doing?, the members are worried for you; I think is a privilege. Even with out family member pun kadang kita tak tertanya soalan begini. They do care for each other. Not everyone is given that chance and not everyone had even done that before. Sekali lagi, its a relief they had each other.
Antara point utama interview ini adalah berkisah pada album D-Day oleh Agust D. Menarik album dan person Suga kali ini kerena dia memilih untuk bercakap tentang the present atau masa sekarang. Seperti yang kita tahu kebanyakan album solo, album awal dan cyper BTS bercakap tentang kehidupan lepas mereka.
Bukan sahaja Suga malah RM dalam album baru pun kelihatan lebih chill dengan memilih untuk bercakap tentang kehidupan present.
We always need to look into the future but we need to agree that it was the past that build the current and future self.
Suga is truly a genius when he said how he come out with the name Agust D, how he have 3 different name from Suga, Prod. Suga and Agustd, how he plan it to be a trilogy as he come into the second part of Agustd, and how he use People Pt 2 to sync the persona of Suga and Agustd.
When Suga said he even when to the mountain to finish writing his verse, finish it in a day, when back to Seoul and hate everything, then postponed the album for a month, then get back to it with fresh ear and loving it again, end up writing more songs after that is what we need to do when we face roadblock in our life; stop it, do other thing, and get back to it with fresh mind.
RM talks about balancing life & work and how he get stressed when its not happening. Suga said they had been working towards making money, being successful since young age and at 30 years old he felt that he is tired. He felt that he had run out of things to talk about.
While travelling, he empty his mind. After finishing the album, he said that they dont even remember the intent of the song/album, its all in the past now.
This is how I see it. Its like when you start writing or doing something, and you get frustrated. When you finish it, you feel so much relief. Then when you look back, you dont understand why you do it or why you are even frustrated.
But that phase is what needed to be done. It need to happen, but when its happening it feel so frustrating and suffocating and all the negative emotion are associated with that phase of life. To deal with it mean you just have to go through the time. The person you become after finishing it is a different person, sometimes the process doesnt look significant but it is what needed to be done to move forward.
We all face that time in our life. The difference between that of us with Suga or any artist is they document it by making an album. I think they do it to 1- cherish that moment, keep the memory of that and 2- share it with other people that are also in that moment, to make them feel visible, to said it was ok to feel that and to tell them that they not alone in it
Common people like us usually us write a diary or journal (journal is just a fancy adult word) where we when end up deleting it or throw it away. Even if you go to therapy or psychologist this is one of the exercise they make us do.
I also believe that to go forward, we need to enjoy the present whether its good or bad ( bad wont be bad forever) but also to look back to see how far you had come instead of how far you had to go.
We need to learn to let things go, like how they let the past go with the released of their album. As Suga said, the ball is in our court now, so what we gonna do with it is up to us. It really sound that Im using Bangtan as an outlet to understand emotion better and realizing thing, but they are also using us to better understand themselves. We really do using them as RM said to use them and its more than just one word, one sentences or one songs that help ARMYS.
Damn Bro
Anyway, RM Damn Bro..damn bro is so satisying to hear hahaha. RM really describe Suga precisely.; his name sound so sweet but he came form behind and surprise you as Agustd, the scary dude who is extremely ambitious and has big dreams.
People who paved the way feel rewarded even thought its hard.
Talking about his solo world tour, Suga feel worried and excited and just what to enjoy it while RM reel grateful as its a blessing for the team but also its tough on Suga.Hes really funny when getting direct compliment from the members.
RM describe this album that has strong sense of anxiety, struggle and also he do include hope in it ( hope and also Jhope in it too). As Suga said we do live our life through their songs & met BTS in our hardest moment in life ( in twtr the ARMY always said that the moment we met BTS is the right time)..we get encouraged by their song and change our life through it.
Im very thankful for that but also want Suga and BTS to know that its ok to step back and life their life however they want. We will keep coming back to them when we had a good life and when we had a hard life.
They hate taking things easily. Like the kdrama said its you need to strike to win the game. the only way BTS know how to do things is to doing it fiercely, wholeheartedly giving their all from the beginning since predebut day
I started this so I can live.
RM kata mereka buat ini (musik, solo album etc) untuk diri sendiri (self fulfillment) but the fact that it also loved by others and make them live make BTS feel lucky and happy.
Suga sekarang buat apa yang dia mahu. Now he is doing it because he wanted it to. He is walking the path on his own feet. This is a good analogy when we are talking about BTS being in our journey. we must rememeber BTS might open up the path ( to self acceptance, self love, facing our fear, trying new thing etc) but its us who finally walking on that path.
Focus on the present, what kind of person you are right now.
I think most of the fans can understand this, especially when you are facing a midlife crisis (which I think happening to a lot younger people nowadays)
Their concern is when people say "what are you worried about when you already achieve some much success?" but what they worried about from now & what they worried about 10 years ago are different but those worry doesnt disappear ( deep kata-kata ni, something to think about)
Time that never comes back feels more beautiful.
Its tough back then but i feel more grateful now.
What is your dream?
Dreams can be something grand but they don't have to be.
And RM answer to that question is he want to live in the present. People back then are just living on the present, they just focus just to be alive. Living in the present is difficult. Future and past life are created by current state. Just keep on living so that you don't regret whatever decision you are making
In short, interview yang menarik dan best. Bila RESPECT unit bercakap memang auto jadi sentimental dan deep.
~B
11/05/2023
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